I was at a friends open house and this girl was there that they had told me I was a lot alike. The instant I saw that girl I was head over heals. She was so freaking cute. I met her and instantly panicked and said I had to go home because I had somewhere to be.
My epiphany is that I realized where my anxiety comes from. I like girls. And knowing that scares me to death. That is why my first real relationship with a guy was so bad for me. Because I felt so uncomfortable dating a guy. I am too scared of my feelings towards girls and too uncomfortable with guys and my anxiety stems from those feelings.
I will be forever alone. Forever and ever and ever.